Dear Mr. 'Hollow'

Feel a deep hollow and the way it kills.
Its both terrifying and enjoying,
utterly out of world.
Blast of feelings inside you,
Extremes of fears, pains and exhilaration.
Knowing the risk, the losses
and awaiting them,
is certainly addictive.

Is it just anticipation,
to get rid of boredom
or its real ?
This also poses serious questions
about your reality and facade
about existence and specialty
Here lies a confusion
strengthening the hollow.

No idea from where it came
sure, it was not always
some tinges were present
but whole monster or rather angel
was absent.
No idea when it came
but ever since then it stands high
sometimes in sun, sometimes in shadow.

It keeps on oscillating
with an increased amplitude
No idea its just a handsome product of mind
or something real indeed
No idea, to embrace it or run away
It makes you laugh
and sometimes cry

But for sure, its a good companion
to live in the world alone
which we all do
Hence all must feel it
or maybe just the blessed ones
Its still in heart
killing deep
wants air, but none near

Its a possessive companion
like all other (true ones)
It never lets anyone come near you
or take its place
You are its possession
and it kills all competition
not a mercy killer, but a cruel one
It'll kill you but not lose you.

They say hollow has more strength
than solid,
maybe that's what friend is trying to do.
Or maybe because
hollow is cheaper too
its trying to cash on [ :) ]
Why question its honesty or ponder
over its role of friend or enemy.

Someday I will consume it
or viceversa
Someday, it will show itself
or prove me mad
Someday, I'll know what was real
and what surreal.
It is an interesting challenge
in otherwise incompetent world